Thursday, March 5, 2009

... a funny thing happened in the way to writing my design journal

So this is a LONG one... but it is a reflective "paper" I wrote in the form of a blog related to re-designing a design journal. I am posting it here because of the length and will reference this post from my other blog (www.designdigressions.blogspot.com).


DESIGNING A DESIGN JOURNAL: PROTOTYPES and ITERATIONS
… a funny thing happened in the way to writing my design journal


My earliest recorded written creative artifact – still in my mother’s possession by the way – is a story from the fourth grade: a rescue St. Bernard from the Swiss Alps turns out to be the dream job of a sleeping dog in the suburbs. I grew up chronicling my thoughts and flights of fancy in many different formats over the years. Short stories, music lyrics, poetry, free thought, travel journals, even futuristic inventions – no matter the form, the act of preservation was inherently fascinating to me. So as you can imagine, even before I attended a workshop on design journals, I was already a bit obsessed with the nature and process of creating them.

The workshop was an optional part of a class I was taking: Managing the New Product Development Process (or NPD for short). Lora, our facilitator, explained the whats, hows and whys of the process. At its core, the design journal captured ideas as well as documented thoughts, reflections and insight into a sharable format (such as a journal or notebook). As a single repository of the design process, the budding (or experienced) designer could track observations, document ideas, brainstorm or “mindmap”, figure out technical details, storyboard usage scenarios, or even reflect on group dynamics. The key: focus on the process, not the product.

Lora said: this is an opportunity for creativity. Regress to kindergarten!

Draw Everything...
Be Visual!
Collect Artifacts...
Be Tactile!

Now THIS was something I could sink my teeth into. I began to observe, brainstorm, sketch, and ruminate to my heart’s content.


Somewhere along the way, something funny happened. Especially as I was afforded the unique opportunity to revisit my design journal a semester later, I began to go beyond the normal critiques of what I could’ve done better – more observations here, better reflections there. No, I began to think about the usability of my design journal itself. Looking at my journal with a fresh perspective, I tried to relive the moments I transcribed: what was I thinking? What was I feeling? What in the WORLD would I do with this monster???

While before I thought of “focusing on the process” as ways to reflect upon the NPD process, whereas now I subscribed unique value in making a design journal, regardless of the outcome of my design problem. Before journals had inherent meaning as an experience I could relive, but now I began to expand my audiences as well as intentions to other uses.

Several new conversations with Lora began to bring my own particular viewpoints into sharp focus. This was not a “gimme” deliverable that would just barely extend my old journal, but a chance to take my old work and both critique and expand upon it as a new member: me from a later date. I would be able to redesign the structure from a new discipline as “business designer” instead of a “businessperson looking at the design process.”

Perhaps the notions of iterations and cross-pollination spanning time seem a little “meta-design,” fairly theoretical. But that is one truth of how each “designer” interacts with their own development processes, be it product, service, experience, business model, relationship, or lifestyle. It is upon this process of redesigning my design journal that this blog (or series of blogs) will focus. From a further theory of the architecture and meaning of a design journal to the structure of this particular iteration, this “diatribe” will be at once both manual and critique, describing the theory and implementation of one student’s journal into the design space.


An Architecture – Why Curate?
“Theory and Ruminations on Design Journal Design (DJD)”


When I was in undergrad, I took a class called The American Landscape: Study of the Built Environment. This class talked about how the physical layout of our environment – infrastructure or architecture, if you will – both reflected and shaped our values as a society. The physical density of San Francisco and early installation of public transportation lead to a very different environment from the sprawl and individualistic transportation infrastructure of Los Angeles.

Much the same way, a design journal is both a construct that can both reflect and facilitate values. As such, this is way beyond pure note-taking. Intentional use of a journal should consider careful the construct with which you communicate to your audience, whoever it may be. At the heart of this issue is the question: Why curate?

Our Design Journal 101 Workshop gave several reasons: litigation, intellectual property, academic communication, team interaction, and for the designer him/herself. Sometimes a journal serves merely as record, other times it is designed for interaction. Sometimes it is a way to exorcise unwanted thoughts in your head, other times it serves as an experience that can continue to inspire new ideas. To every designer, it should be a unique and personal reflection of their journey through the design process, regardless of the form or function.

This is back to Use, Usability, and Meaning 101. There are many areas to explore on the architecture of a design journal. In particular, I’d like to briefly discuss my views of the impact of audiences, cross-pollination, sense and experience of time, and multimedia or other physical constructs on the experience of a design journal.

Showcases – Audiences and Interaction
Back in high school, I used to belong to an improvisational theatre troupe. For exactly one year in 9th grade, Our Gang Teen Ensemble was a home away from home – providing an outlet for teens to express themselves creatively, while at the same time providing a family or community during an awkward stage of life.

Personal context aside, Our Gang taught me a lot about the importance of considering your audience. Drama games were played both to warm yourself up as well as for your peers’ increasing enjoyment; the experience was to benefit the connection with other improvisational actors. Plays were primarily oriented toward the external audience’s experience, revealing new lessons and peeling back emotions in nuance and inflection; perhaps another audience was the director in helping him or her realize a particular vision. Monologues provided a construct to allow an external audience a window into a performer’s emotional state; but there was no mistaking the monologue was mostly a public vehicle for the performer’s personal catharsis – the value lay in the individual’s journey.

My favorite form of acting was a series of improvised sketches or vignettes, called a “showcase.” Here, there was a true multiplicity of equally important audiences. One part “game”, one part “monologue”, one part “dramatic window” – the showcase focused on the troupe as a whole as well as the audience. At the beginning of (and sometimes throughout) the showcase, the troupe would elicit scenarios from the audience and then act out those selected by the artistic director until asked to “freeze!” This was truly a team effort: the audience provided ideas, the team interpreted them, and the artistic director gave a framework for the overall thematic “discourse” through selecting which scenarios were included.

Notice how the multiplicity of audiences provides a unique opportunity to seamlessly incorporate an element of interaction into the “product” design. The final showcase experience was not determined by any single group or individual unilaterally… nor even by a group consensus. The final experience is at once a conglomeration of the inputs of all these “audiences” or participants that is dynamically changed through interaction and thus becomes a whole greater than the sum of its parts.

Through this analogous life experience, my inner actor – inner “designer” – inherently understood that the consideration of goals, vision, and INTENDED AUDIENCE may influence form and function of my design journal. Particularly precious is the ability of the designer to specifically influence the structure or form of the journal to facilitate INTERACTION that may greatly increase the unique value of the design process because of the inability to reach the same creative solution when faced with unilateral creation and decisions.

In a design journal context, interaction can be facilitated through a variety of constructs and media. Intended audiences and critiques of selected constructs are discussed in the section discussing this journal’s specific design.

Travel Journals – Journeys of Time and Multiple Media
Somewhere between my high school experiences and this past semester, my connective relationship with audiences and interactive theatre was paused as I began a more introspective journey. Lost under layers of years of travel journals that were primarily constructs for an individual audience (me) to re-experience a journey, I forayed into accidental experimentation of how different curatorial constructs could enhance an individual’s later experience with a journal. Specifically, I naturally played with different expressions of time and the use of multiple media.

To start, my travel journals were purely logs of activities and stories I experienced during a vacation. I threw in some musings about cultural differences to enhance my memories of my emotions from that time: the awe of discovery, the joy of surprise, the alienation of foreignness, the loneliness of solitude. But upon rediscovering and rereading early journals, I yearned for better cues for my re-experience. I was not the same person that I was during my travels, so I needed a better way to re-inhabit the depicted moments. Thus, I naturally began to play with new cues regarding time. Consistent date formatting including the location of my transcription became an integral component of all future entries; this format elicited both the original memories as well as provided secondary cues of the feelings I had when writing those memories down. Upon each rereading, a holistic picture of the moment would include the original event, my fading memory and emotions surrounding that event, the experience of transcribing the event, and any further perspective I gained in the interim regarding that event. This was experiencing a particular concept or moment THROUGH TIME.

At the same time, I began to notice how monotonous it became to simply write, write, WRITE my experiences. Natural evolution demanded posting of pictures and postcards, artifacts with comments, and personal sketches. As they say: a picture says a thousand words. In this case, a single image could capture several stories or days at a single town; a sketch could re-invoke a range of sensations that words could not hope to match. It was through this experience that I connected FORM and MEDIA with MEANING.


DJD PROTOTYPE – Form and Critique
or “One Iteration of a Designer’s Journal”


Shortly after graduating with my Bachelor’s, I conceived of a framework called “Music Life Architecture.” At once database, catalogue, poetry, art, music, lyrics, free thought, or any other creative impulse you can imagine, MLA was a DYNAMIC framework whose artistic beauty lay in the changing organization, relationships, and growing inclusion of a single artist’s life work. Any individual work could stand alone. And the process to create any single piece of art could be documented in a journal or blog. But this was a collection of processes – a changing embodiment of creativity that was meant to be experienced over time. Much the same, this design journal is specifically designed to be experienced over time – a dynamic process in its own right.

Word of Warning
ITERATION 2.5, if you will. That’s the version-control number of this particular design journal. And as much as I could wax philosophical all day, this is really about implementation as much as design. However, before we delve into the structure of this curatorial artifact, a word of caution/explanation:

WARNING: Much as the NPD process is a function of iteration – a dynamic framework – so is this particular design journal a dynamic artifact. Multimedia and temporal in nature, final design of this iteration will include items that are progressive throughout this semester… until the next iteration can begin.


ITERATION 2.5 FEATURES (conceived)
Original Entries


  • FEATURE: ITERATION 1 included all original postings between mid-September and late November 2008. These include a variety of observations, concepts, and reflections.
  • CRITIQUE: Original entries were extremely limited in the full extent of reflection and feedback it could include. Primarily focused on idea generation and including several observations and needs related to key customers, there is little in terms of structured concept selection, technical details, or particular feedback on the same page of the original concept sketch. Instead, a user has to read between the lines by reviewing the evolution of concepts. Also, there are several areas that were held for additional consideration that were not used in an explicit manner and therefore would not be useful for communication of the NPD process. On the other side, there are inclusion of key workshops and notes from outside sources that may be helpful in understanding the context of the process in the student’s academic environment.

Reflections and Fill-Ins
  • FEATURE: In preparing ITERATION 2.5, the designer was able to go back and review key gaps in the design journal.Sometimes, that meant providing new contextual pages with stories related to change in direction.Other times, that may be additional notes on an original concept.
  • CRITIQUE: A unique construct made possible by the revisiting of a project a whole semester later. Examples of reflections and fill-ins are used sparingly or as illustration as the purpose of ITERATION 2.5 changed from documenting the NPD process to including documentation on the DJD process. However, the practice can remind a designer to intentionally review recent work more periodically in order to review intuitive leaps and document explanations for future use.

CD-ROM Disk
  • FEATURE (pending): Disk that incorporates key files shared by the team that are not as easily replicable in a design journal.
  • CRITIQUE: In addition to providing a vehicle for additional concepts and process steps, this feature allows a designer to include relevant supplementary information. Sometimes, it is easier to include a PowerPoint slide or digital image that might not fit on the pages of a journal. However, a designer needs to be careful not to utilize this to REPLACE the journal. Not all users will have access to a computer and a designer must remember that a design journal should be able to stand alone.


Blog Entries
  • FEATURE (pending): Entries on a blog that contextually fit the design journal and helped contribute to the process.HTML tags should be used to help audiences easily find the related material.
  • CRITIQUE: Blogs have the additional benefit of being both dynamic and creating a natural repository for feedback from journal audiences. Comments on blog entries are common, and this can create a more interactive feature than most traditional design journal features. However, the same caution related to CD-ROM use applies here: blogs should be supplementary in nature.


Tabs and Post-Its
  • FEATURE (partial): Tabs and post-its can become the most interactive features of the physical design journal.Colored tabs (not featured) help disorganized journals become organized by tabbing individual pages by process stage or concept iteration.Post-its, meanwhile, can serve as placeholders for team journals for open items, or include concepts that can be moved around within the journal for new context and meaning at will.
  • CRITIQUE: Post-its are not utilized here to the full potential. More as open items, future iterations should include “big ideas” or even “details” that can be moved around to appropriate ideas and contexts. This helps with keeping key design concepts at the forefront of the designer’s mind as he moves along to new concept iterations.


“Designspirations”
  • FEATURE: This pack of index cards is designed to provide images and words that inspire visceral impact on the user.A user can review individually for inspiration, add new word associations on a card, or even shuffle the cards to make new pairings for individual brainstorming sessions.
  • CRITIQUE: While “Designspirations” is untested, it has its origins in other card-related games that inspire reflection. For example, Café Gratitude in Berkeley does this very type of exercise for life lessons. Ideally, this is one construct for a designer to cross-pollinate ideas when they are left without a team (as this designer found in ITERATION 2.5) or brainstorming between meetings. However, the effectiveness of “Designspirations” use remains unclear until implemented.


Table of Contents
  • FEATURE (unimplemented): Another feature to help the disorganized journal, this is a three-dimensional table of contents that would provide a grid for an audience to understand which journal pages relate to which process stage.Strings can connect points of the pop-up TOC to further illustrate cross-pollination between stages and iterations.One need look no further than the character “Hiro’s” time model in the NBC show “Heroes” to understand how these interactions across people and time can help an individual appreciate the complicity of the creative process through time.



Final Word

As a process, the design journal iteration is not over. It is still growing as a larger part of the independent study project to better understand the NPD project. Continue to look for updates online at http://designdigressions.blogspot.com/.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

...while scratching my metaphorical itch

encased in a house of concrete: an introduction, and only an introduction

From a bird's-eye view, our brick-lazy, boggish blogger lay atop the tallest through-street in his unincorporated township. With so little atmosphere to weigh him down - administrative OR meteorologic - one would think that he would soar to lilting literary elevations (or simply alliterative luxuries... indolent indulgences if you will). But the languid lavish of the howling wind or blank slate of the bare walls did not pique his imaginative invention as he once hoped.

Yet late last week, as our subject stare into the guttering lamplight, a veritable Einstein-ian revelation thrust itself into the room. Instead of Herculean efforts of dissertative digression into researched meanderings... why not save himself from expectative epiphanies and blog on a single subject that interweaves itself throughout his integrated inquests?


while i lay procrastinating:
a translation

From a high level, doing a referenced blog seems easy. But as I sat trying to complete new posts on three entirely separate occasions, I realized that these theses-sized posts are at-best monthly in nature. Concurrently, it occured to me that there was a good opportunity to blog about my blended studies. This semester, I have tailored every academic effort (save one) to focus on the nexus of design and innovation in a business context. Here's my syllabus:
  • Design as Competitive Advantage
  • Managing Innovation and Change
  • Business and Technology for Sustainable Development
  • Independent Study: Focusing on the New Product Development process
Realizing that I wanted to save my ramblings in a single place (instead of always emailing different classes), I decided the blog format would help me further integrate my studies and hopefully create a repository for others' comments. While the dialogue repository has yet to flower, I have received a few personal emails upon starting my blogging curriculum-enhancer.

So before you worry that I have left another effort by the wayside, please check out my new blog: Design Digressions. Just please bear with me until I settle into a consistent bloggin voice. But there will be a mixture of academic rumination, design observations, and quick-hit resource posts.

Please let me know what you think!
-Stan (a.k.a. Ryan)

P.S. I will continue to post here on rare occasion. Future posts include philosophical musings on the nature of creativity, the social and cultural impact of blogs, and the life of elephants...

Sunday, January 11, 2009

...on obsession and compulsion

earlier this morning: an introduction

It was still before 10AM on a Sunday morning… plenty of time to get energized and productive. I had even had a bit-too-full-for-my-stomach Vienna Crepe full of sun-dried tomatoes, spinach, pine nuts, and other vegetable goodness that made me warm inside while fueling my body with proper nutrients (rather than the sugar-filled crap I usually grab on the go with my coffee). Yet leaving the Bean Bag Café, my jumpy edginess returned. I felt the restlessness creep back, stealing into my thoughts like a leaking faucet creeping into your unconscious until it slowly takes over your every compulsion, neuron by painstaking neuron.

This feeling always starts the same: gnawing at my doubt, slowly fraying my confidence and sense to peace until the cord of composure is visible but structurally undermined. Yet still I don’t let on. Next, a twitch like pre-marathon jitters… perhaps pent-up energy waiting to be released until I can find my rhythm. I convince myself that my breakfast has given me a burst of hyperactivity, and still I don’t let on. But despite my mental reassurances, I begin to slightly pace a bit differently, to the point where I feel like a newfound smoker looking for his next drag… jittery and jumpy and acting like a recently-caffeinated addict without the benefit of an outlet.

At this point, I drop back a step and mask my uneasiness with a look of daydreaming. I look around and nonverbally signal I need a moment to myself. Unfortunately, the moment never passes. As I continue to segregate myself my distraction becomes obsession. I need to calm myself somehow. I need to think about something other than my restlessness. Despite a few calming breaths, my thoughts linger and obsession becomes compulsion. I need to do something else. So even if it’s a bit abrupt and awkward, as soon as we return home I gather my stuff and announce my need to go work at a café.

So here I am.

Previously, a change of scenery would be enough to calm the nerves, but now the edginess follows me if I don’t do something. I think back on all those moments of compulsion to action and realize I’ve wasted time with changing homes or physical locations instead of delving into my curiosity. So with the quick (if oblique or obtuse) introduction to obsession and compulsion (we’ll save motivation and curiosity for some other time), let’s focus on the meaning, origin and use of these two words.


OBSESSION…

Merriam-Webster’s Online Dictionary dates the word “obsession” back to 1680.[i] While the word can also mean the object, idea, or something that causes an obsession, the root definition is “a persistent disturbing preoccupation with an often unreasonable idea or feeling.”[ii]

A more medical definition can be found on Healthline: “An obsession is an unwelcome, uncontrollable, and persistent idea, thought, image, or emotion that a person cannot help thinking even though it creates significant distress or anxiety.”[iii]

This definition underlines the more serious, dark associations that society has with obsessions. Whether linked to the simple definition of obsessive rumination[iv] – the preoccupation with certain thoughts, a multitude of phobias[v] – or obsessive fears – that lead to an excessive unreasonable desire to avoid the feared subject,[vi] hypochondria that leads to constant worry over health or doubt to professional diagnosis,[vii] or love obsession – or when one person is emotionally obsessed with another person (also known as “love addition” or “relationship addition”)[viii] and which can be the cause of such serious actions as stalking or more serious crimes of passion.

However, despite serious clinical diagnoses and other more disturbing outcomes, not all meanings or portrayals of obsession are so dark and serious. Pop culture icons and references to such single-minded determination or thought processes include John Cusack’s carefully-cultivated neurotic[ix] movie personality (in its many variations of idiosyncratic behavior from Say Anything and One Crazy Summer to Grosse Point Blank and High Fidelity) to 19th century poet Lord Byron’s momentary obsession when he first saw his cousin Mrs. Wilmot, as immortalized in “She Walks in Beauty”[x] (yet never came to dark or lasting influence on his object of affection).

In fact, Merriam Webster’s also notes that the word “obsession” more broadly means a “compelling motivation.”[xi] In this sense, many of today’s modern inspirations are celebrated in movies, whether from the inspired devotion of Lesra (Lazarus) Martin to help acquit Rubin “Hurricane” Carter of a wrongful conviction for triple homicide after 30 years of imprisonment[xii] (as depicted in The Hurricane), to the determined self-expression and difficulties of alternative personal identities that lead to the horrific tragedy of Brandon Teena[xiii] (as portrayed in Boys Don’t Cry), to the exploration of the fine line between the genius and madness of John Forbes Nash[xiv] (as shown in A Beautiful Mind).

In such a colloquial context, “obsession” may not be all that bad. Imagine the MBA student who is not driven to be ultra-productive in single-minded pursuit of his or her goal. Or even consider the more artistic context of the writer. In Writing Down the Bones: Freeing the Writer Within, celebrated author and writing seminar facilitator Natalie Goldberg explains how writers end up writing about their obsessions, those “things that haunt them.”[xv] Goldberg describes how the repression of an obsession to focus on other subjects can end up creating the opposite effect because repressing her obsession “seems to repress everything else too,”[xvi] simply because she spends so much energy and thought avoiding that subject. In such a way, our obsessions may seem to have too much power, but Goldberg asserts by giving them a time and place in a friendly way, we can then satisfy our needs and move on to other subjects as well. In this way, giving into obsession can be a good thing; whether giving us something to write about or engage in, if harnessed properly obsession can be an energizing force.


…and COMPULSION

“We are run by our compulsions.”[xvii]

An idle assertion by Goldberg when writing about obsessions. But what exactly is compulsion? Beyond the single-minded determination of thought, Goldberg’s discussion of need to write about our obsessions introduces the impulse to act. It seems that obsession is only half of the story.

Merriam Webster’s defines “compulsion” as “an irresistible persistent impulse to perform an act (as excessive hand washing);” also, it goes on to define compulsion as the act itself.[xviii]

Compulsions are often exhibited in two ways. First, there is drug addiction. But often the idea of compulsion is also paired with obsession, the idea being that an obsessive thought or rumination precedes a person’s strong impulse to act in a particular way. This is called Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, or OCD.[xix] Symptoms usually include obsessions or compulsions that are not du to another medical illness yet still cause major distress or interfere with everyday life. [xx] Commonly acknowledged categories of OCD patients that may affect life include washers, checkers, doubters, counters and arrangers, and hoarders.[xxi] Often, this disorder is treated with a class of antidepressant drugs known as SSRIs (selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors), which include famous name brands such as Prozac and Zoloft.[xxii]

According to the Stanford School of Medicine, serious implications or depictions of this disorder are implied as far back as the 17th century, though the modern concept of OCD has its roots in the 19th century French and German psychiatrists.[xxiii] French psychiatrists subscribed to emotional and volitional views; German psychiatrists focused on OCD as a disorder of intellect. Meanwhile, earlier depictions of the serious nature of this disorder even include the character Lady Macbeth’s compulsive hand washing in Act V, Scene one of William Shakespeare’s 17th century play, Macbeth.[xxiv]

As with obsession, not all depictions of compulsion are so dark or serious. Lighter pop culture references include Tony Shalhoub’s hilarious depiction of the obsessive-compulsive (but highly effective) Detective Adrian Monk from USA Network’s series Monk.[xxv] Here, Adrian Monk is able to harness his obsessive-compulsive tendencies to uncover obscure patterns to better solve crimes. Similarly, Michael J. Fox’s guest appearance on the series Scrubs portrays obsessive-compulsive Dr. Kevin Casey as a quirky but brilliant doctor.[xxvi] However the nuanced portrayal also reveals the frustrations and difficulties of those diagnosed with OCD when Dr. Kevin Casey cannot keep himself from washing his hands for over 3 hours after he has last finished performing a surgery.[xxvii]

Like “obsession,” the word “compulsion” is a very serious term that depicts a debilitating disorder. Surely, even given the events of this morning and the past semester, it is hard to subscribe to this definition. Perhaps such behavior is best described as simply restless or idiosyncratic. However, by understanding these two terms better and using the broader social meaning of the words, one can at least hope to harness the future restless, jittery moments and turn them into something more driven, more constructive.


References and Further Resources

Healthline provides HealthMaps ® that allow you to interactively search the web for overviews, diagnosis, symptoms, and treatments for disorders such as Obsessions (http://www.healthline.com/healthmaps/obsessions?utm_term=obsession&utm_medium=mw&utm_campaign=hmap).

Natalie Goldberg has long practiced sitting (and writing) meditation, formally studying at the Minnesota Zen Center in Minneapolis with Dainin Katagiri Roshi (http://www.mnzencenter.org/mzmc.html). Her official website can be found at: http://www.nataliegoldberg.com/.

For all other references and resources, please view the endnotes.

Endnotes

[i] http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/obsession
[ii] ibid
[iii] http://www.healthline.com/galecontent/obsession
[iv] http://www.medterms.com/script/main/art.asp?articlekey=12009
[v] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Phobias
[vi] Merriam Webster’s defines “phobia” as “an exaggerated and often disabling fear usually inexplicable to the subject and having sometimes a logical but usually an illogical or symbolic object, class of objects, or situation.” (http://medical.merriam-webster.com/medical/medical?book=Medical&va=phobia)
[vii] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypochondriasis
[viii] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive_love
[ix] Neurosis is “a mental and emotional disorder that affects only part of the personality, […] and is accompanied by various physical, physiological, and mental disturbances (as visceral symptoms, anxieties, or phobias). (http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/neurosis)
[x] http://ezinearticles.com/?Lord-Byrons-She-Walks-in-Beauty&id=40911
[xi] http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/obsession
[xii] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lesra_Martin; http://www.imdb.com/name/nm0141918/bio
[xiii] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Brandon_Teena
[xiv] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/John_Forbes_Nash
[xv] Goldberg, N. (1986, 2005). Writing Down the Bones: Freeing the Writer Within. Pp. 42-44.
[xvi] Ibid.
[xvii] Ibid.
[xviii] http://medical.merriam-webster.com/medical/medical?book=Medical&va=compulsion
[xix] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Obsessive-compulsive_disorder; http://www.uihealthcare.com/topics/mentalemotionalhealth/ment3160.html
[xx] http://www.healthline.com/adamcontent/obsessive-compulsive-disorder?utm_term=obsession&utm_medium=mw&utm_campaign=article
[xxi] http://www.helpguide.org/mental/obsessive_compulsive_disorder_ocd.htm
[xxii] Ibid.
[xxiii] http://ocd.stanford.edu/treatment/history.html
[xxiv] http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Macbeth
[xxv] http://www.usanetwork.com/series/monk/
[xxvi] http://scrubs.wikia.com/wiki/Kevin_Casey
[xxvii] Ibid.